I'm not going to be the nicholas i use to be. I'm going to be a selfish person from now on. I only think about myself. If there is anyone in my way i will always bug him off. Everytime you have a girl around you, you forget all about your work. It's that what it's called respondsibility? You are part of the team but you ain't doing much do you know that? I just terribly utterly disappointed in you. I'm tired of lecturing you. Your life, your way.

Okay so life hard as projects start piling up i've decided to list out the stuff which i need to do in case my STM acts out and i forget the stuff which i'm suppose to do by week 16. So let's get rolling:

- CMSK report
- ANP projects (animation about drums) (by week 16)
- Visit the addiction organization for NMT (by week 14)
- Do a report for NMT (by week 15)
- Create buttons interaction for MMP (by week 14)
- MMP ppt slides which showcase my prototype (by week 16)
- Find out how to do CMATHS2
- Complete MOS video + editing (by week 15)
- Creating website for MOS (by week 16)
- Sociology movie (by week 15)

Yeah so this are the stuff i am suppose to do.
I shall keep myself busy for now.

I still miss you. I still do. I'm just scared.

I want my sleep. My beautiful eyes
My eyes are sooooo droppy.

It's Heavy ):

Everytime i see your face. I recall of the time you told me off. You don't look like that kind of person. Up till now it still shocks me, i feel very very uncomfortable and it really pisses me off. FML FML FML. Things aren't going the way it's suppose to be. I always get a Fucked up first impression. People always say i'm fierce at first sight, but the truth is i am actually damn friendly ): I know that god always has a plan for me in life but i just have to search thoroughly for what i truely need. Okay forget all about the sad and shitty part of my love life. Let's talk about my life now. Well school is pretty draining all my energy but i am enjoying every single part of it! I have decided to form a band and actually try be a drummer for a change, sick and tired of singing already.

I dawn of the day where i can be skinny and look good. (Sad Face)

Music is such an essential necessity in my everyday life. Right now my eyes are droppy and my eye backs are so bad that it really looks like a natural eyeliner. As i was walking back i was recalling what i have done in my pass years in order to chase someone who i like. And i realise that i always let girls climb over my head as tough i am a rock. And after every unsuccessful cycle, i tell myself that i will not repeat the same mistake again and be stronger but i realise that it's pretty impossible. But now, i am going to be someone who stands up for himself and a more calm like human being. Down-to-earth is still a must. In this society either people play you out or you play them out. I must not be three steps ahead but actually 5 steps ahead. I have finally got things out of my chest and i just feel like a burden has been lifted. I thank God for making me understand what life really is. Instead of hating it, i shall love it. (:

I'm gonna need it...

It's not because of you that i turn out this way.

It's because of people like YOU that turn me this way.

There are only a few woman who can ever make my life happy. I think without them i would crumble (The positions are in random order, but obviously Mum's the 1st la :D). The first woman would be my Mum. She is always there for through thick and thin. The next would be Yirui. A good friend of mine who never fails to let me down. The following would be my sister, Dawn. Although she is sick and i pray for her most of the time. But she always know when i have a problem. 6th sense aye. Next is Lydia. My sec school friend who is the cuddly one who understands me. The last is Martha. My funny and jovile friend who nvr fails to lengthen my spirit. I have been going through days of sadness and this few women have been trying their best to lift my spirits up. And i really want to thank them sincerely from my heart. I love you people! (: